TODAY IS JUST ANY OTHER DAY

Well, today is my birthday and to be honest, It doesn't feel like it. Before my birthday used to be a very very special day for me. Not only because I got to live another year but also I got to spend my year with such amazing people around me. Now things have clearly changed. No one around me cared if  its my special day. Nobody even got me a present (not that I was expecting or anything but I am grateful if somebody does) and it doesn't even require to be a physical present. A sincere act of kindness will suffice but nothing really came. And it sucks not to have one. But hey, you can't have everything you want. And clearly I don't have everything that I wanted.

Love always,
Shaun.

LAST DITCH EFFORT

Well, today was a horrible day. It started with having breakfast by myself. No one to talked to, No one to share tables with. I saw a couple of familiar faces in the fast food chain I was eating in but never bothered to even offer their free seat. So I started eating my food on my own. I got in time for first class. As a new semester has started, the introduction of oneself is always gonna be a part of it. So the introduction was over then came the second class. Then a 10-minute break to transfer to a different room. I passed by my "friends" along the hall. As I was thinking of a last ditch effort to give myself another chance of just forgiving them and forgetting about what happened yesterday, they gave me the look like I was some disgusting person. I guess I am officially out of the "GROUP". Meanwhile, Its gonna be my birthday tomorrow and as much as I want to be optimistic about it, my surrounding just won't let it be. This Birthday will surely suck.

Love always,
Shaun.

NEW HOPES

Now, its the second day of my class. I do not want to enter again into a room rushing towards a vacant seat and people looking at you as if you killed someone. I got to meet most  of my blockmates for this term because our oralcom professor asked us to. There was quite a mix of different personalties in our block. Some were shy and timid, others were loud and friendly and there were quiet but smart ones. I can't wait to befriend them all. I guess socializing was my thing. Goodluck to me I suppose.

Love always,
Shaun.

NO BREAKS, NO MATES

My schedule for this term wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. All week long, there was no rooms for lunch breaks or siestas but 10 minutes just enough to transfer from classroom to classroom. Today I realized that its okay to not have any breaks cause I found myself left alone by people whom I treated as my friends. Real Friends to be exact. But all that I got to experience was being left alone in mid air not caring about you like you're not even existing. I never thought they could do this to me, I treated them like I cared about nobody else. Among all of them, chin and jaiun might be the only ones who really cared about me. They were the only ones who never did degraded my personality. Yeah, they may say jokes about me but i'm pretty sure they were not as serious about it as the others do.

Love always,
Shaun.

EVERYTHING WAS A BLUR

Today was the first day of my third term as a college student. I became stoked from the day before expecting that my first day will be a blast to a point that I never got to sleep. But I was wrong. After arriving late to my first class because of transportation issues, seeing my terror professor again in elemstat, and after spending the day with no one, everything wasn't going as I expected it to be. My "friends" gave me a cold shoulder. A really cold one. Nobody from the group even tried to communicate with me. Well, except from the time we got in an elevator together and chin decided to break the silence by asking how I was. So I replied "its fine" but to be honest, it wasn't. Good thing I reached my destination right after I answered so it completely saved me from another awkward question which I barely wanted to answer. Everything that happened today was such a blur to me. I honestly don't even know what happened over the 2-week holiday vacation that led to this.

Love always,
Shaun.